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Post by pengal18 on Jul 21, 2010 19:09:07 GMT -5
Glad to be here - I am in the glorious state of South CArolina. Broke up with my POA about 4 weeks ago. In various states of recovery - maintained NC for a long time but have recently found myself caving into text exchanges - but with the ability to detach emotinally from them which for me, was progress.
Background that is just now really helping me hone in on this illness - I was adopted at 2 months from an orphanage. (little or no contact, needs not taken care of, no affection, mom "deserted"). Just realizing the depths that this event reached into my core being and shaped part of me today. Now - what to do with all that!!! LOL.
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Post by CJ on Jul 21, 2010 21:54:35 GMT -5
Welcome Pengal. I am happy to see you here. NC is never easy and slips happen. The fact that you are finding ways to emotionally detach from the texts is huge progress. Take care. CJ
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Post by quinn on Jul 21, 2010 22:23:44 GMT -5
Glad you're here Pengal. Thanks for sharing about your adoption from an orphanage. I, too, have become convinced that our earliest infant experiences have played a huge part in our LA addictions.
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Post by g on Jul 22, 2010 2:10:18 GMT -5
Welcome Pengal. Glad you've joined us. G
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Post by serenity on Jul 22, 2010 8:30:48 GMT -5
Glad your here Pengal and reaching out for help.
I was talking to a friend in recovery about adoption and how our early years i.e 1-3 effect us in the rest of our lives. He's in his late 30's and has just realised how his adoption must have caused great abandonment fears and rejection for him.
I have the same fears for different reasons but recovery can set us free from this bondage to the past. Welcome and look forward to getting to know you.
Blessings, Vee
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Post by knowlove on Jul 22, 2010 8:56:12 GMT -5
Hi Pengal, Welcome! I too have just started hearing how being left as an infant can have effects on us that last a lifetime (I was in hospital one month after birth). Good work with the NC. We are glad to have you.
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