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Post by jfriend on Jun 10, 2010 17:42:17 GMT -5
Hey guys - jfriend here! I'm in a hurry right now; however, I just wanted to register, say hello, and give my support to the forum. As you folks probably know (from reading the other forum), I've had total NC from my POA for over 9 weeks. I wish I could say it's getting easier ... but it's been pretty DARN rough lately! The obsessing is seemingly constant, and I know I've made her into something she is not. She is a good person, I chose pills over her at the beginning of this year, and when I got sober (it's been over two months now), I began to grieve her loss (I definitely did not miss her while I was high). She made it clear as she helped me get into rehab (I got in touch with her and confessed to my pill addiction while we were together) that we could only be friends. I didn't agree at first, and when I finally did ... she wasn't happy with that - she seemed upset that I thought "friends only" was a good idea. Anyway, I don't want to analyze her - this happened over the phone - but that was the LAST contact of any kind we have had. Needless to say, the last 9 weeks has been about dealing with sobriety from drugs and especially dealing with NC with her. I sometimes don't contact her from strength, and other times, simply out of fear of rejection. Nevertheless, here I am - in a LOT of pain. I truly want this obsessing to stop ... or at least slow down. Whew - that was more that I thought I'd write. I'm out the door, but I'll will check in later. I'm glad to be here ... and sorry for rambling.
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Post by knowlove on Jun 10, 2010 21:13:47 GMT -5
Never rambling to me, just writing all your feelings down and isnt that what is so wonderful coming to the board? Saying how we feel without judgment or understanding but caring compassionate people who help us see things more clearer? Glad you are here.
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Post by sexlessw on Jun 11, 2010 17:21:21 GMT -5
No rambing, just telling some past situations.
Hello everybody!
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Post by knowlove on Jun 11, 2010 19:28:42 GMT -5
So happy to see you here sexlessW!!
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Post by moonlight on Jun 12, 2010 1:34:31 GMT -5
Jfriend, that's very insightful to read. It really helps me to read about other people's feelings of powerlessness. It's so easy for me to think everything is okay when it really is not. This helps me a lot. And knowlove: I'm happy for your name change!!!! (Right, or am I mistaken?) Sexlessw: happy to see you here!!!! And Rick: very nice that you are so active and take responsibility for the site. I'm very happy with the site. Love, Moonlight
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Post by moonlight on Jun 14, 2010 3:29:07 GMT -5
Hi studentm, welcome!!!!!!!!!! Love from Moonlight
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Post by primrose on Jun 14, 2010 3:49:55 GMT -5
Hi Student! Good to know you're here. P.
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Post by sexlessw on Jun 14, 2010 6:50:43 GMT -5
Has anybody else changed their names? I'm sticking with SexlessW - how else would anybody know me?
However, I am down with people changing their Handles when they jump forums.
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Post by knowlove on Jun 14, 2010 8:32:14 GMT -5
Hi studentm. Glad you came! Welcome!!!
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Post by g on Jun 14, 2010 11:46:32 GMT -5
Hi there Studentm,
So glad you managed to find us ;D G
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Post by trout46 on Jun 14, 2010 12:52:43 GMT -5
Welcome student! Look forward to getting to know you. This is a very safe place.
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Post by trout46 on Jun 14, 2010 14:34:18 GMT -5
Thanks Craig, likewise. I've been here, just busy with other matters. Miss spending the majority of my free time on the board. I think a fuller sense of order and direction is just around the corner.
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Post by Rilly on Jun 17, 2010 0:26:05 GMT -5
Hi everyone,
I just want to say hello, and show my support. There is a lot of work involved in creating a successful forum. There are some great people getting it started, so I'm sure it will be a great forum. One that will serve many love addicts in need.
Rilly
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Post by knowlove on Jun 17, 2010 8:11:06 GMT -5
Rilly so happy to see you here. Welcome. Feeling like the old board but better!
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