Post by g on Jul 18, 2010 8:32:17 GMT -5
As a young woman I used to fill the void in my life by reading romantic novels. Week after week I would devour the latest bestsellers during school holidays.
When I came to my parents' native country on holiday, as soon as I ran out of novels to read I would make do with photo romance magazines. Never seen those in the UK but all the rage over here. They were extremely steamy as were films on TV. Censorship in the UK was much stricter so holidays meant a lot as far as S education was concerned.
Long , hot summers and lazy days on the beach with bfs or large groups of friends...well, not going to go into detail.
I realise now that I filled my days with romance either with a bf ( I've been involved with someone or other
uninterruptedly since I was 16).
My dream to get married has been with me since that age too. Ever since my brother died and my family ripped apart as a result. So, to medicate my pain I made up stories in my head or lived gregariously thru characters in novels or actors on tv or in movies.
Brazilian Soap operas were immensely popular when I was a girl and I was so addicted to them I'd organise my day to make sure I didn't miss an episode. The drama and chaos was intense and I participated fully at an emotional level. The Bold and the Beautiful kept me hooked for many years as did the Young and the Restless.
Fortunately, I kicked that addiction 20 yrs ago but I often find myself in situations where female friends talk about teir favourite soap stars as if they are talking about a close friend.
I can't listen to all that crap any more. Makes me feel nauseous. I hate gossipping too and I get a physical reaction to it.
Drama and chaos make me feel ill especially since I OD'd on my POA. I need peace and calm in my life now and that is what I crave for me, my h and my girls.
G
When I came to my parents' native country on holiday, as soon as I ran out of novels to read I would make do with photo romance magazines. Never seen those in the UK but all the rage over here. They were extremely steamy as were films on TV. Censorship in the UK was much stricter so holidays meant a lot as far as S education was concerned.
Long , hot summers and lazy days on the beach with bfs or large groups of friends...well, not going to go into detail.
I realise now that I filled my days with romance either with a bf ( I've been involved with someone or other
uninterruptedly since I was 16).
My dream to get married has been with me since that age too. Ever since my brother died and my family ripped apart as a result. So, to medicate my pain I made up stories in my head or lived gregariously thru characters in novels or actors on tv or in movies.
Brazilian Soap operas were immensely popular when I was a girl and I was so addicted to them I'd organise my day to make sure I didn't miss an episode. The drama and chaos was intense and I participated fully at an emotional level. The Bold and the Beautiful kept me hooked for many years as did the Young and the Restless.
Fortunately, I kicked that addiction 20 yrs ago but I often find myself in situations where female friends talk about teir favourite soap stars as if they are talking about a close friend.
I can't listen to all that crap any more. Makes me feel nauseous. I hate gossipping too and I get a physical reaction to it.
Drama and chaos make me feel ill especially since I OD'd on my POA. I need peace and calm in my life now and that is what I crave for me, my h and my girls.
G