Losing the POA pull

[iwillsurvive]

Last night I went to this restaurant/lounge that has live music much of the time and I'm happy to report that I had zero LRA-acting out behaviors. Just had fun. Was with a couple female friends and we laughed and talked and danced. Also met a male friend of one of my female friends and he was very nice and centered and unlike a POA.

I know it's only one night, but I am seeing a significant change in myself thanks to my HP and recovery right here with you all. POAs seem to have lost their pull with me.

My eyes are opened to the pathology behind so much of my behavior as well as the behavior of others. I know I have more work to do and that I must stay present in order to stay away from LRA activity.

Just wanted to take a moment to celebrate. Thanks to all here who have helped me make this progress.

Anyone else experiencing something like this?

[g]

Yep IWS I do relate.
And that is why we have to use this board to work with the fellowship on our LRA issues.
We can grow and learn together in respect of the Traditions ( without spending hours discussing them ) and doing Step work without discussing whether the Steps do or don't work.
We're a 12 x12 board but all our recovery time should be dedicated to our specific addictions and how we can get healthier.
Looking forward to getting back into that work with you all.
G

[trout46]

So happy for your strength IWS! What a wonderful marker of your recovery.

I was triggered Friday by something my secretary wrote to me about my POA (we work together if you don't know or have forgotten that), but the really, really good news is that it didn't last past that night. I actually wrote back to my secretary Saturday, to say something about the communication, and wasn't triggered at all in doing so. For me, that is progress. I have only to think back to where I was in early May to see some very definite signs of healthy growth.

I'm definitely seeing the POA better and better every day, and the picture I now have is a far cry from the person I once thought I could never live without. This is such a huge issue for me, that I'm going to start a new thread to begin to address it.

[knowlove]

Iwill, so happy for you!!! That must have been such a wonderful feeling for you. Glad you were able to go out and enjoy yourself with friends and realize there was no strong pull or neediness. Wonderful!