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Post by g on Nov 30, 2010 5:08:45 GMT -5
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Post by serenity on Nov 30, 2010 12:02:06 GMT -5
Did you write this today G or post if today and wrote it back in 09?
Its heart wrenching hearing about the ungrieved pain for your brother and how that led you into your LA. Its also beautiful how you see what happened for exactly what it is, a LIE that seduced you to take you away from yourself.
I have felt superior to both my long term (2 yrs) partners and i dreamt about both of them last night/today as i've been ill in bed for 2 days. In both dreams i was trying to convince them i really did love them whilst fearing that i really didn't truly. Painful.
I will pray for your r/s with your h and for truth and restoration to be yours.
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Post by g on Nov 30, 2010 16:15:19 GMT -5
I wrote this last year. I was going through withdrawals from my poa. I had tried so many times to end my EMA because I knew it was so wrong from the very beginning. When I found the other board and finally made myself accountable to others I was able to allow God back into my life and get through the excruciatingly painful withdrawals. The panic attacks, cold sweats, suicidal thoughts and despair of having to break my addiction after 16 mths of failed attempts, suddenly became possible. I'm sorry things went the way they did with the other board but my recovery was and still is the most important thing for me.
Vee, sorry you're not well honey. Big hug to you. Xxx
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