Post by primrose on Dec 27, 2010 13:03:48 GMT -5
I'm powerless over the ivf not working, powerless over whether or not I have a child. I feel despair that I am powerless and can't do anything to change this, but I can't. I feel heartbroken that my marriage hasn't been a gentle experience of commitment and then a child. I wish sometimes that things had been different, but I also accept that what has happened to me has been an experience that has helped me grow and learn emotionally. The dark night of the soul that love addiction has been, has taught me so much, so I accept it, even though I also mourn for a life that was free of it.
I surrender my inability to have a child. I accept there is nothing I can do to make this happen. I accept that I am ageing and I have no control over that and that if I am not to have a child I accept that.
I surrender to the grief and also to the pain and frustration. I do not know what life holds for me but I accept that surrender to it and acceptance of my powerlessness is the best path for me.
I surrender my inability to have a child. I accept there is nothing I can do to make this happen. I accept that I am ageing and I have no control over that and that if I am not to have a child I accept that.
I surrender to the grief and also to the pain and frustration. I do not know what life holds for me but I accept that surrender to it and acceptance of my powerlessness is the best path for me.